*MY STARLIGHT

Enuf....

2011-12-08T17:24:00.001+08:00

Emotionally: I'm done. Mentally: I'm drained. Spiritually: I feel dead. Physically: I smile.
Psychology... I toy with people, I manipulate them, I push them to their limits, I am never serious, I always have the tendency to be mean to people even though i appear very nice and kind, I am always angry even though I put on a smile, I inflict pain on myself then I will feel better, I keep quiet about a lot of things so that others don't have to worry about me & people don't surprise me anymore... I am sick, mentally... I need help but I think, I should be able to hold it... Until one fine day.....Until one fine day....

2011-10-07T10:04:00.002+08:00

Well maybe it true, when u start study human, it way to easy to read a person, & U CAN'T BE BOTHER ANY MORE...well at least that wat i say, but i dun think so. HUMAN...have emotion, & that the key to hold back everything. today when i saw u Mr dan talking & acknowledge my bestie instead of me. i come to my senses it not u like it my bestie...althoght alot of time i dream about u, & we go out together chit chat...Apart of me say it best i distance myself..i prefer not talking, not looking, not hearing u....part of it, i m sad i m invisible to you....

HELLO...

2011-06-03T01:02:00.000+08:00

I’ve been alone with you inside my mind
And in my dreams I’ve kissed your lips a thousand times
I sometimes see you pass outside my door
Hello, is it me you’re looking for?
I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your smile
You’re all I’ve ever wanted, (and) my arms are open wide
‘Cause you know just what to say
And you know just what to do
And I want to tell you so much, I love you …
I long to see the sunlight in your hair
And tell you time and time again how much I care
Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow
Hello, I’ve just got to let you know
‘Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely, or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven’t got a clue
But let me start by saying, I love you …
Hello, is it me you’re looking for?
‘Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven’t got a clue
But let me start by saying … I love you

hate i love u boy

2011-05-24T13:34:00.003+08:00

It's how much I love you & I need you boy...
And I hate how much I love you boy...
I can't stand how much I need you...
But I just can't let you go...
And I hate that I love you soooo....
And I can't stand you, Must everything you do make me wanna smile???
You know exactly what to do so that I can't stay mad at you for too long
That's wrong...
And you completely know the power that you have,the only one that makes me laugh
Sad & it's not fair
How you take advantage of the fact that I...Love you beyond a reason why...
And it just ain't right
One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me
And your words will make me weak
But no one in this world
Knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...

NO JUNE PLZ!!

2011-05-20T23:28:00.002+08:00

after my holiday wat more fun to saw him & meet him....even 4 a while, at least i saw him, talk to him..all my question, was answer..make me sad thou...please,please, please....make me okay....but seeing u make my day soooo happy after my holiday....my holiday was fun,all the picture at upload at my fb....But not those ra pic lah....HAHAHA!!! check them out all rite...I DUN WANT JUNE TO COME!!! SO MANY THING GOIN TO HAPPEN SEH!!! I M STRONG!! I M STRONG!!!

i.m.y

2011-05-15T10:18:00.003+08:00

oh my gosh....i miss him, what wrong with me...after my 2nd night shift i am flying off, Indonesia here i go... i soooo badly want to meet him 1st before i disappear from Singapore to go holiday. If only he knew, if only...i will come back...that for sure...i am scare, i will never meet him again or see him at all...hish...ALL THIS drama make me SICK...

i am starting to hate the if, this is all my emotional running wild??

Why it have to be complicate?? i prefer it simple....

can i just wait for you? but will i get disappointed later?

TOO much question won't help....

but ever since i meet u, u make me want to change to be a better person, not because of you...for my own self...you make me to a honest lady...

i never felt that kinda of feeling, like suddenly i want to be an angel, suddenly i have wing...maybe it the hope or light that shine thou my heart that you touch...

please stay where you are, i want you to settle your commitment & your study...

i will be here....where you left me, & when your done & ready....held your hand for me...

peace out human...

ignore

2011-05-14T01:31:00.002+08:00

Well today, i knew i shouldn't go to your facebook....but i did...i find out you going charlie, well i guess it good for you...You are back to team, You should be happy i guess...i sometime just wish as a friend you can message me to tell me but who am i to you...just a friend, not that important & with no feeling i guess...Maybe it my pride, my ego...i DON'T want to message you nor call you...the moment u message me just make me smile, see u make me happy the whole day...

i don't want to weak myself just cause of you....I M FINE...without you...i m sure i am...if there any problem, i shall put it in a box & stuff it to the dark shelf in my back brain...

maybe you can pretend i m a ghost...invisble, & just ignore me....

I have no feeling & i don't want to feel... & maybe soon when you go charlie, you might just forget me...& maybe the next time you won't remember me...we will walk pass each other without realising....but i dun wish to be that way...i really dun...

The devil msg

2011-05-11T21:19:00.003+08:00

Well today is a great day, when to JB & MY 1ST time meeting adilah mummy...

i m not surprise adilah have abit of the same attitude as her mummy.. it was always like kinda rushing for me, since i am a vvv relax person...but i manage...

My mother didn't believe i when to JB, She was asking, why so fast??

hahaha...Bought my ciger there international samporna...woooo!!!! best seh!!!

Can say, i am abit naughty...my mother know....i trying my best to behave...

Anyway today mr "i' msg me....at abt 3pm, asking me wat i was doin....maybe i was too cold....

but i just don't understand such person who seem confuse...

Can i say 'settle your confusion 1st, & get back to me when ur done'

TOTALLY....I M NOT THAT!! i m still nice!!! fuck seh!!!

why???

anyway i hate people who msg people then, never reply back or give a end msg....

it annoying!!! it irri !!! & just left the conversation hanging...

well WHATEVER!!!

TMR got IST SEH, another 2 hr of sleep in the auditorium...

TMR IS PAY DAY!!! PAY BACK TIME...

peace out ppl...=)

HELLO...

2011-05-09T00:22:00.002+08:00

hmmmm...let start with a brand new start, since i deleted every single blog post of mine before....

So now it sooo call new...for the year 2011...YEAH....boring as always....MAYBE when one day my life get SOOOO interesting...i SHALL write a book...hahaha...me & my nonsense...anyway when i dream, i dream big....WELL THERE A SAYING GO " YOU WILL NEVER KNOW..."=)